Ode to the Family :(

Hello Readers..

Thanks again for dropping by and reading my not so good blog..I was just getting home from work and I totally had a feelings disorders..Ya..you know what, at certain time I felt that I am tired.Not because of work but because of my feelings.I was so not comfortable with myself lately and I just want to let it out here..
When I'm down, I love to write..Ntah aku pun tak tau kenapa aku rasa macam down giler..I just want to tell it out here but there is no privacy..
I had feelings too and I know people wont have much time for me as well..Even a hello or even to notice something bout me they dont even bother..Yeah its true a friend said that you have to be careful before you get hurt..I know I will always be there when in need and sometimes not.But i am sure whatever it is there was no intention to burden and annoying the people around me..I am just being a friend. Maybe to close or too good also is not healthy.
I know that there is a person that care for you and the person is already know you better than I do..I'm just a pathetic human being that always needs updated..That is the bad side of me that you would have to take same like the bad side of you that i have to take..
Friends,
I will not be able to hold on to this thing anymore i guess..maybe I will just have to make a move and move on with my life.I am so blessed to know all of you well and the only hope from me is you always been blessed with everything that you do.I know I am not a good person as a friend..But after a lot of giving I think i am tired and the pain that Im having right now, I cant barely feel it. It is not worth it chasing something that you know will let you down one day..I always bare that in mind.
By this , I'm giving the chance for other people and maybe your old friend to give the best to you, for something that I myself coudn't provided you with..There are a lot of people out there that will care for you as you were born with the glimpse of star in you..
I'm so sorry as i cannot be there for you anymore and my only hope is that you will find way better friend that will always provided with what you want and needs..
I have lost the battle but at some point I think I have win something out of it. I am nothing but a piece of junkie ..I know that whatever the possibilities there would never be an understanding..
I cannot barely stand the fact that there is a person that doesn't like the friendship that we built..A person that is always jealous of everything that I have and doesn't want to see the friendship grow.How I wonder jealousy  can lead to improper Twitting. I know everything and I always keep in the heart..Only me suffer from whatever people do to me and say bad things about me..I always consume it everyday as part of my supplementary..
You may not notice it but I do..Please give the person a chance as I can always tolerate in everything.
I apologize in everything that I did , my attitude, everything that i taught you on life , everything that i provide you , the time that you take to entertain me and also the words that you have to take because of me..I'm so sorry from the deepest of my heart.
Dont worry friend, i already get use to frustrations and bad things in life..
I do hope you can carry on with the life you are having now.There will be times when you can accept the fact that I'm no longer there..

"I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvitedBut I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight itI had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be remindedThat for me, it isn't over" - Adele-
Farewell..Eadee2011